Hey you! Why did you stop believing that you were fearless? When did you stop believing that nothing was impossible? And Why did you stop dreaming?
Questions I ask myself from time to time. I sometime struggle with the progress of my life. Thinking I should be further along than I am. I should have finished my new musical CD by now, traveled to Africa, earned my Master’s Degree, and be much slimmer (haha)! All of this done on top of being a super mom, wife, fully engaged in ministry and working my job! OK, ok, ok, you can relate?!
Yes this may all sound like a fairy tale, but that’s the self-ambition I set for my life. Did you see the word self? See my friend, everything can be executed in its due time, but not without the Father’s hand leading every step of the way. And most importantly asking yourself the real question.
Why do I want to achieve the goals I have listed? Is it to boast to others, “look what I’ve done?” Is it motivated by a facebook post that projected the idea that I was missing out in life because of something I lack? “Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” Proverbs 19:21
Why? Why Crystal, do you want to accomplish all of this and dare to put a time limit on it? There is nothing wrong with wanting more in life, pushing yourself for greater, but we run into a huge issue by not asking Father God, what do you want for my life, Abba? And not following up with, ok well, when? But allowing yourself to go through whatever process He wants you to go through to get there. Oh! And allowing the mistakes of getting there to make you stronger and not set you back. Jeremiah 29:11 says, “I know the plans that I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and future” You see as long as our heart aligns with his plans we will prosper.
So, I struggled with this saying that my mother told me in two important parts of my life, the first time I heard this saying was before I got married and the second was before my 1st child was born. Mom simply said,” Don't lose you, don’t lose Crystal”, my first response was, “oh no! not me, I'm going to stay true to me.” Well, let’s just say I’ve changed a whole lot!
Before I was quick to say,” no not me!” I thought about that line of wisdom wrong. I thought it was all about the outer core and staying that bubbly fun ready to conquer the world attitude I've always had. But what she really meant was even though you have a husband and kids don't stop dreaming, and don't stop doing the things you love and growing as a woman spiritually, educationally, and remembering you. Boy, did I struggle with that.
I felt like I had lost myself in many ways. I had gained a whole new life that I loved, but I slowly forgot about me. Becoming a wife and a mother is a blessing and true honor. My family has made my life better. But I have found that there are moments when you take a deep breath, step back and say, “What am I doing with my life? With tears in my eyes washing dishes I have asked, “Father did I stop believing in myself? Maybe you have felt the same wave of an emotional thought!
And in God’s pattern, My answer didn't come that very second. I believe God wanted me to answer my own question. Yes I have, somehow during this new journey of mine I told myself it was too late, it will never happen, and I am past my prime years , that door is closed. Talking myself out of my miracle! My faith had become weakened and because it had been shaken, I stopped believing that I am fearless! According to Mathews 19:26, “With God all things are possible” Dreaming and believing that all things are possible through him, because I am loving Christ, he will cause All things to work together for my good! I just needed to Remember Romans 8:28NLT “And we know that God causes everything to work together for your good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.”
I was neglecting the balance of having harmony with all the roles I had!! I told a friend, I’m Struggling with balancing everything. They said, “just look for everything to be in harmony, it will balance each other out.” So, I’m a musical person and one definition defines harmony as; the simultaneous combination of tones, especially when blended into chords pleasing to the ear; chordal structure, as distinguished from melody and rhythm. Now, how can I embrace a harmonious flow in my life? By simply daily trusting in the Father’s care over my life and by seeking Him to fine tune my out -of -synch steps and thoughts. Matthew 6:28-30 (NLT) 28 “And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, 29 yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. 30 And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith? So, my friend lean back and rest!!!!
Guest Blogger, Crystal Cooper-Taylor
Pastor Teresa actively travels throughout the country imparting the Word of God in a candid and refreshing way. Teresa is the host and creator of SisterFriends Cups and Conversations, an Internet Talk Show providing a platform for women to engage. www.newcreationfamilychurch.com to learn more.