God what is it that you need of me?

            I’ve known for years that God had called me; I may not have known exactly what I was called to do but I wasn’t trying to find out either. Just like an unruly child deliberately ignores a parent; I decided to ignore God and turn my back towards him. I was not ready to say “Yes”.
            Just recently I found myself at a point in my life where I was “just living life”. Just doing what I needed to do to get through the day. Wake up, go to school, go to work, go home, do homework, go to sleep, repeat. I wasn’t doing anything for myself mentally or spiritually. I had fallen back from spending my time with God, journaling, and I’d even stopped praying. I was in a state where yes, I was physically here, but I was not present.
         I imagined myself on a running trail where I am jogging, out of breath, and weary. Then, one day something inside me had woken up. I was tired, but physically I was spiritually and mentally drained…. I was tired of being lukewarm Jesus. That’s when I stop running, I turn around and say with what breath I have left, “Here I am Lord, I say Yes”. It was almost as if someone had flipped a switch in me, the desire and yearning for God was back stronger than ever.
           One thing that my parents always taught me was that it is never too late to do anything. It’s never too late start over, to pursue a dream, to prioritize personal time, and mental health. No matter where you are in life, no matter what you are doing, or where you are going, its never too late to say “Yes” to Jesus. There will never be a “right” time so speak.
          Anytime IS the right time, any day is the right day, and any moment is the best moment you could ever choose to say “Yes” to God.
We hear this a lot in church so some may think it is cliché. God never, ever, truly ever turns his back to us even when ours is towards him. So, I’ll leave you with this. James 4:8 ESV “Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded”.  


Guest Blogger, Tatiana Collins